Dear physicians, PAs, NPs, nurses, medics, assorted therapists, techs and all the rest:
The great thing about our work is that we intervene and help people in their difficult, dire situations. We ease pain, we save lives. Our work is full of meaning and joy. However, we sometimes make mistakes. But remember, in the course of a career you’ll do far more good than any harm you may have caused.
I know this issue lingers in many hearts. I know it because it lies in mine. And I’ve seen it in other lives. I said this once to a group of young residents and one young woman burst into tears. I never knew the whole story, but I imagine there was some burden of pain she was carrying for an error she had made.
But just in case you too have lingering anxiety or guilt about some error you made in patient care, I feel it necessary to say this: neither honest errors nor even malpractice are sins. They are mistakes, born of confusing situations, fatigue, inadequate experience or knowledge, overwhelming situations, the complexity of disease and the human body, social situations, systems problems, general chaos. Born of your own humanity and frailty. Your ‘shocking’ inability to be perfect at all times, and in all situations. They do not make you evil, bad, stupid or even unqualified. (PS If you’re not actually a physician but pretending to be one, you’re actually unqualified so stop it.)
As a Christian physician I have contemplated this over and over and have come to the conclusion that God knows my inadequacies and loves, and accepts me, regardless. He has forgiven my sins. I embrace that reality every day. He forgives my pride, anger, sloth, greed, lust, all of them. But he doesn’t have to forgive my honest errors. Because they are not sins. Go back and read that again. Your honest errors are not sins.
Mind you, all of the brokenness of this world is, in my theology, the result of ‘Sin’ with a capital S. (Not in the sense of minute, exacting moral rules, but in the sense of the cosmic separation of the creation from the Creator.)
So, my mistakes, my failures are born of Sin, but are not ‘sins.’ If my mistakes, if the harm I may cause, come from rage, vindictiveness, cruelty, gross negligence, murder, drunkenness or other impairment on the job, then they could reasonably be due to ‘sin.’ But even so, those sins can be forgiven, and washed away with confession and true repentance. (Not platitudes or superficial admissions of guilt, mind you, but genuine heart felt ‘metanoia,’ the Greek for repentance, which means ‘to change direction, or change one’s mind.’)
If you are not a believer, join us! But if you aren’t interested, I love you too and want you to move forward, not burdened by unnecessary guilt. If you are a believer, and a practitioner, remember that Jesus (The Great Physician) set the bar pretty high and doesn’t expect your perfection, only your honest, loving best.
Mistakes, even mistakes that rise to malpractice, are not sins. But even if they rise to sin for reasons listed above, they are no worse than any other. Which means Jesus atoned for them as well.
Move forward in joy. You were forgiven before you even started worrying about it.
Now go see a patient. The waiting room is full of people who need you!