For all who have followed along, Jan is doing well. For those who didn’t know, she had squamous cell carcinoma of the base of the oropharynx last year, and received radiation and chemotherapy.
She’s doing well, eating, gaining weight, has a little saliva and pretty good sense of taste. However, she has an insane husband/physician who hovers over her endlessly and always expects the worse. That is, recurrence.
Tomorrow we go back to MUSC for a follow up PET scan. I hate scans. I have scanxiety! I always expect the worst, despite the lack of clinical evidence to the contrary in the way she feels, acts, etc.
Cancer follow up is a terrifying thing. Everyone who has been there understands. I feel perhaps more terrified than when she was being treated.
So for those of you so inclined, prayers would be much appreciate tomorrow and the next few days, so that we can have safe travel to the scan and a good report from it.
It was a long year, and I pray God will be merciful to us and keep us from having to go back into the abyss of treatment again. The odds are good, but my innate physician fear is at an all time high.
I confess that this may not seem very faithful of me. My dear friend, an atheist, even reminded me I needed to have faith. But it’s always hard when it’s someone you love. In particular, the woman I met at age 19, married at age 25 and by whom I have four beautiful children.
Please keep us in mind and pray for mercy!
God bless you all!
Edwin
PS encouraging stories still appreciated, by the way.
I’m both an ENT surgeon and a Christian. I’ve had many patients who have survived terrible cancers of the throat with the treatment your wife has had.
It is not easy for us doctors. In fact, it is far worse, because we’ve seen the worst before. And all we can have is faith, both in God, and in good doctors.
I have a feeling this experience is going to strengthen your partnership, love and characters in a way no other experience can.
Dr. Leap, Thursday I went to my regular follow-up visit to my oncologist. I baked a pumpkin roll and took it to his staff as a Christmas gift, had a nice chat and a check-up and left. It was more of a social visit than anything else. Seven years ago I was in tears for weeks before the same appointment. I went into the office and went straight for the bathroom and threw up. Eventually the whale in the living room will shrink and sit quietly on the shelf, but it takes years. Praying for a full year of good… Read more »
Thank you for the special prayer. PET scan normal! Praise God. And actually, Mary Beth, she’s ready for me to stop fussing over her! A little concern was nice; obsession and anxiety were a drag for my poor dear.
Happy New Year!
Edwin
whitecap nurse
12 years ago
Here’s another atheist praying for some serenity for you and your family. Waiting for information is always difficult because there is nothing to do but wait. Best wishes to you and Jan.
Thank you so much! Jan’s PET scan was read as normal. How often do radiologists do that? Clear evidence of the miraculous…
Seriously, I deeply appreciate your concerns and prayers. Let me know if I can ever return the favor. Happy New Year!
Edwin
Mary Beth
12 years ago
Yah!!! Great news. Now shall prescribe Ativan for you and all will be well.
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Edwin
I’m both an ENT surgeon and a Christian. I’ve had many patients who have survived terrible cancers of the throat with the treatment your wife has had.
It is not easy for us doctors. In fact, it is far worse, because we’ve seen the worst before. And all we can have is faith, both in God, and in good doctors.
I have a feeling this experience is going to strengthen your partnership, love and characters in a way no other experience can.
Praying for you both
Martin
Thank you for that, brother!
Dr. Leap, Thursday I went to my regular follow-up visit to my oncologist. I baked a pumpkin roll and took it to his staff as a Christmas gift, had a nice chat and a check-up and left. It was more of a social visit than anything else. Seven years ago I was in tears for weeks before the same appointment. I went into the office and went straight for the bathroom and threw up. Eventually the whale in the living room will shrink and sit quietly on the shelf, but it takes years. Praying for a full year of good… Read more »
Thanks friend. I look forward to that day.
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Will say special prayers for her. I bet she feels lucky to have you worrying over her.
Thank you for the special prayer. PET scan normal! Praise God. And actually, Mary Beth, she’s ready for me to stop fussing over her! A little concern was nice; obsession and anxiety were a drag for my poor dear.
Happy New Year!
Edwin
Here’s another atheist praying for some serenity for you and your family. Waiting for information is always difficult because there is nothing to do but wait. Best wishes to you and Jan.
Thank you so much! Jan’s PET scan was read as normal. How often do radiologists do that? Clear evidence of the miraculous…
Seriously, I deeply appreciate your concerns and prayers. Let me know if I can ever return the favor. Happy New Year!
Edwin
Yah!!! Great news. Now shall prescribe Ativan for you and all will be well.
Congratulations. This atheist has been much more worried about YOUR health of late. Looking forward to a more normal and relaxed 2012 for you and Jan.
Thanks buddy. It means more than you’ll ever know.
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