Raising doctors, the 'beta' version

This lecture was recently delivered to the weekly student convocation at Erskine College.  I’ve already posted a link to a story about it, but this is the text I used.

It  is in thinking of my children that I decided what to say to you today.  You see, at least two of my children have said to me that they would like to become physicians.  Now, that may change.  They’re still young.  They may yet become dancers, musicians, craftsmen or many other things.  But if they choose to follow my path, I have some things to teach them.  And so, since many of you are young enough to be my children, and since some of you may also desire to become medical doctors, I will share some advice with you.

It occurred to me once that medicine is not like it used to be.  I cannot allow my children to follow me around and learn as my apprentices as they might have in centuries past.  And when they are in school, medicine will have changed far too much for me to be their teacher in the science of it all.   But I can be their teacher in the art.  Because, cliché as it sounds, and no matter how much we become absorbed in scientific evidence, medicine is an art.  Anyone who tells you otherwise has not practiced enough, or has forgotten what it was like to practice.

So, I give you the Beta version of ‘Raising doctors.’  But it might also be called ‘Raising wise, compassionate adults.’  Because the traits I want to inculcate into my four little interns are traits we all need in large quantities, if we are to navigate the world for good.

So, what would I tell my children?  What advice can I give you from years in the emergency room?  Rules of thumb and a few stories.

First, about humanity.

I  Humans are good.  I have seen old couples love one another to the very end.  An aged couple once touched me…she had hemangiomas all over her face, and he was kind as any old man I ever met.  They loved each other so, and he kept talking.  ‘Would you shut up!  Ask him the time, he’ll tell you how to build a clock!’  But they so loved each other!   I have seen grandparents tenderly raising the children their own sons and daughters abandoned.  I have talked with parents of adult addicts, struggling to do their best for them.   I have seen young parents lose infants and mourn in ways you could not imagine.  I have been amazed that the scary, tattooed man in leather was all tears and kindness, no matter how he may have looked on the outside.  I have met men and women who could have been on disability, but who worked on despite their frailty.  I know physicians who give their all, at all hours of the day and night.  Humans are capable of enormous love and compassion.

II And here’s the hard truth.  Humans are wicked.  Just last year I saw a man who had severely beaten a child.  And he himself had been beaten in jail.  Just last year, I saw a child beaten by his mother’s boyfriend.  Every day, someone lies to me to receive prescription drugs.  In fact, prescription drug abuse is a massive problem in America today, as people take pills and even sell the pills prescribed to them; all while getting state and federal assistance.  Men and women routinely cheat on their spouses, become addicted to alcohol, drugs and pornography, and drive their vehicles illegally and while intoxicated.  Humans lie, cheat, steal and do everything else imaginable to lower our expectations.  And some of the worst wear expensive suits and speak perfect English.  Do not be deceived by externals.

Love humans, but beware.  They are, to paraphrase Pascal, ‘glorious and wretched.’

Kenneth embodied both.  An old drunk, a mean drunk, a murderer who had served time in prison, he routinely came to the ER, as you might guess, drunk.  He often threatened to kill us.  He could have.  He would often leave us, angry, and say ‘I’m going to get my shotgun and come back and kill you!’  I guess he just went home and fell asleep.  He was loud and profane.  Who knows how he ended up that way?  But, in the midst of his anger, all we had to say was ‘Kenneth, there’s a baby in the next room, please be quiet!’  And he would apologize and weep.  He could, and did, recite Shakespeare.


I  Medicine, work in general, is not only about money.  Money cannot make you happy; money cannot provide the meaning you so desperately require in order to press on toward the goal to which you were called.  Many of the least happy physicians I know make lots of money.  Money compels many bad decisions, and many moral perils, in which men and women make bad decisions because of the lure of cash.  The news is full of their stories.  Bernie Madoff comes to mind.  His money purchased jail-time.

II  But money is not evil; the love of money is the root of evil.  If you do your job well, you will deserve to be paid well.  Compensation is appropriate, and the lack of fair compensation for work will kill a work ethic and productivity quicker than my children can start a brush fire.  Never be ashamed of your skills, or of the desire to be paid for them. And always remember that money is payment for pieces of your life, which you carve out for the purpose of supporting yourself and your family.  You need the money, and your employer needs your skill.  They key is to have something someone needs, and to be willing to do what others don’t want to do, in places they don’t want to go.  I have a great job in Seneca, because lots of people want to practice in LA.


I  Death is universal.  It is the constant perspective of medicine:  this realization that the grim reaper stands by our sides at all times.  You are young.  May God give you many long decades of life.  But in the end, we will all exit the earth.  I have seen a bunch of death and participated in quite a few deaths…I mean, as a doctor.  I have watched aged men and women die slowly, holding hands.  I’ve struggled in cardiac arrests, trying to save life.  I have seen infants who died in their sleep.  And I have seen young people, in the prime of life, die tragically from accidents, or from cancers that they never expected.  We can delay it; so live healthy lives and don’t take unnecessary risks.  But in the end, it gets us all. The death rate remains the same, my partner says:  One per customer.  It’s a useful cure for guilt to realize that no one avoids it forever.

I learned this most poignantly the night my partner was driving home and ran his car into a horse.  He was killed, but before he died I had to help care for him, and face his family.  Death even comes to doctors!

II  Because this is so, life is precious.  Moments are precious.  Do not waste them.  Use them in genuine pleasure, use them in love, use them to produce and create and leave behind a legacy of wonder.  Television is not a productive use of your life; frankly, though I do it myself, neither is Facebook, Twitter, constant web-surfing or X-Box.  (Though I someday hope to beat my children at HALO…if you don’t have ODST, go and try it!)

Someone once said, ‘as though one could kill time without wounding eternity.’  I have tried to live by that rule.  And so, I struggle to use every minute well.  A life in which death is certain should inspire you to fill up every breathing moment with something good.  I hope to stand before God, exhausted because I was still moving forward when I died.


I  Everyone is broken.  Everyone is broken.  Everyone is broken.  Do I need to say it again?  As Philo of Alexandria said two thousand years ago, ‘Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a great battle.’  I have known so many people.  The woman crying for her recently deceased husband.  They angry young man going blind, bitter because he would never see his daughter with his earthly eyes.  The brother of a man stabbed to death who punched the wall next to me.  The woman constantly abused by her boyfriend, who just wanted a kind word.  The man always afraid and paralyzed by anxiety.  The woman who has come to our ER some 2000 times, literally, in the 16 years of my practice, because she is lonely within her marriage and just wants someone to talk with, in a place clean and bright.   If you would be great, be kind.  And show the broken that they are worthwhile.

II  Everyone is worth fixing.  No one is garbage.  We might use the term ‘trailer trash,’ but it’s incorrect.  No one is trash.  Some are evil, some are deceitful, some are just bad.  But inside each is a human soul of some potential, created in the image of God.  Be careful not to judge too quickly.  Be careful to show kindness.  Remember that the drunk may have been ignored or abused by his parents.  Remember that the addict may have been raped as a child.  Remember that the angry may have lost his children to tragedy.  Remember that the rude driver may just have learned that he lost his job, or his wife, or that his sister has cancer.  Remember that we all have pain.  And remember this:


I  Humans matter because they have intrinsic worth.  This is a kind of grace; that we have worth not because of what we do, or who we are, but because we are!  This is why I always took care of Larry no matter how drunk or crazy he was.  See, in addition to being a drunk Larry was addicted, heart and soul, to pain pills.  Once, stoned out of his brain and with a blood alcohol of 400, he said, ‘I have to go doc, and babysit my nephews!’  ‘What?  Are you crazy?’  I said.

He was in the ER constantly.  Something always hurt.  I checked him, and decided if it seemed legitimate or not.  Over and over again he visited, as he slowly, surely dissolved his own liver and finally died.  Did he deserve it, from a human, utilitarian standpoint?  No. But from a heavenly one, he did.  And I never regretted it.  Not even the times he told me ‘my brother stole my Lortab!  Momma’s in the truck, you can go ask her!’  In the end, I came to really like him.  I miss him, to this day.

II  Humans have worth, so you have worth.  Do not be used or abused by anyone.  You are as entitled to happiness and safety as anyone else.  I always wondered why that woman left the ER one night after caring for her sick, but very annoying mother, and then put gun to her head.  I wonder if she felt she was worthwhile.  I’m afraid she didn’t.  But she was.  She was infinitely valuable.  Never doubt that you are an amazing creation, who has just scratched the surface of your potential, temporal and eternal.


I  The truth is powerful.  Do not neglect it out of convenience, even kindness; for it is a false kindness.  I once confronted a patient and told her that she was a narcotic addict, that she needed to get help and get a job.  She wasn’t happy with what I said.  But about a year later she saw me, stopped me and thanked me for telling her the painful truth.  She beat the drugs and had a job!  I could have lied to her as she lied to herself.  But that would have been crueler than anything I could have done!

II  The truth requires gentility.  ‘Am I going to die?’ people ask.  Sometimes, the answer is yes.  But the answer I give is, ‘We’ll do our best to keep you from dying!’  Sometimes, all anyone needs is a little bit of hope.  Use the truth carefully when you give bad news; couch it in love and possibility.


I  Love your people fearlessly and recklessly.  Give your time to those you love lavishly.  Time is your most precious resource.  Spoil your family, your siblings, your parents, your lovers, your spouses.  Spoil them with time.  A man who lost a teenage child to a car wreck, said to me ‘spoil them while you have them!’  Truer words were never spoken.

II  Do not be deceived by any love that causes you to be or feel diminished.  Love that is good enlarges you, so beware of anything less.  Remember that, in the name of love, men use women and women use men.  I see the results of their lies in abuse, in sexually transmitted diseases, in violence.  Love is the most abused word on the planet.  Guard your hearts, as the Bible says.


I Family is paramount.  Have one.  And when you have one, fight to keep it.  Children whose families are shattered struggle.  They feel uncertain and alone in a frightening world.  Sometimes, the parents of single mothers or fathers do ridiculous things, like taking the baby for a stroll at 1 am, or subjecting them to the violence of boyfriends and girlfriends.  These children from chaotic homes look at me, even at age 2 or 3, and seem to say (with their eyes), ‘please take me home and put me to bed…these people I live with are nuts!’  Marriages that break up leave both parties divided, lonely, financially devastated and depressed.

II  Do not be tricked.  Crazy people make for difficult families.  And by crazy, I mean out of control, dangerous, dramatic, unstable individuals.  I’m not talking mental illness; I’m talking crazy.  You all know someone who is crazy, don’t you?


I  You are all young and passionate; those are wonderful traits.  But avoid unnecessary drama. I see drama all the time. Try to remember that for most of the working, struggling world, drama is exhausting.  I work in a Level I Drama Center, with a D.  Couples fight, scream, call each other rude names, leave lewd messages, get divorced, shatter the quiet nights, take overdoses and talk about suicide, pretend to pass out and feign illnesses, only to get angry when I believe them and try to put them in the hospital.  And that’s just the staff!  Drama, manufactured drama, drama created out of boredom, is a distraction from unhappiness and often the evidence of a mind lacking creativity and purpose; or the appropriate fatigue of hard work.  Live lives of meaning and purpose and you’ll have little time for drama.


I  Calling is paramount.  Find that thing that moves you.  Frederich Buechner said:  ‘Your true calling is the place where your deep gladness meets the world’s deep need.’  Let me say that again……

You have gifts of love and opportunity.  So find the things you do best and use them for the good of the world.  But don’t be surprised if your calling changes with the years, even your profession!

I began as a journalism student, became a physician, then became a writer once more.  Who knows what will come next?  I’ve been blessed to care for sick and dying people.  And to write words that encouraged people, or made them laugh.  These are great gifts; the gifts of following my calling.  So, I urge you to work with all your hearts at what you love, and be open to what you will come to love next.  Your skills and interests will change with the years, and so must your calling and work.

II  Calling may have nothing to do with your job; your job may merely exist to support your calling.  Your calling may be something you desire deeply; or something you have not yet even discovered.  Be patient, but be persistent.

A few closing thoughts:

Finally, and more practically:

Avoid drunk people with chainsaws.

Do not look for dates in the emergency room waiting area.

NEVER keep a rattlesnake for a pet.

Take as few medications as possible.  Especially for pain.

No one is attractive when they vomit after drinking too much.

Police officers have no sense of humor after 11 PM.  They don’t even laugh at donut jokes!

Dogs do not enjoy being kissed on the mouth by intoxicated loud, aggressive individuals.

Hit the dog, hit the deer, but do not hit the oncoming vehicle.

If your friends want to ‘make a bomb,’ get the phone and prepare to call 911.  Stay back a safe distance.  Follow the donut rule.

Your parents were correct:  nothing good happens after midnight.  I’ve seen the aftermath.

Be wise in all you do.

Be compassionate.

Learn to love well.

Doctor or not, you’ll make the world better by loving.  I dub you my interns; go forth and treat the world well!

Now, have a great day, and please try to stay out of the emergency room.  It’s really not that interesting if you’re a patient!

God guide and bless each of you, today and always!


20 thoughts on “Raising doctors, the 'beta' version

  1. I thoroughly enjoy reading your posts. Your writing inspires thought and reflection as well as laughter -a wonderful balance. If you ever publish a book, make sure you let your blog readers know -I would definitely be interested in it!

  2. Well said, thank you. I will be showing this to my children (age 17 and 20).
    I am a rural ER nurse, pointed to your website when one of our doctors showed me an article you wrote.

  3. thank you so mutch for those words of inspiration, your writting is truely captivating.

    I’m currently a medical student and it is allways a delight hearing the amazing stories you experienced doctors have, can’t wait for all these exiting (and frightening) encounters 🙂

  4. What a load of crap. Also, if someone asks you if they’re going to die, and there is no chance at all that they will survive their illness, you shouldn’t lie to them. You should say Yes, but we’ll try to make it as painless as possible, or Yes, but we can try to put it off as long as possible, or something else that is true. Patients are not as familiar with your euphemisms as you are, and will probably take your ‘We’ll do our best to keep you from dying!’ as meaning there is a chance they will survive. Which is a lie. You lie to your patients. Do not couch bad news in possibility and hope if there is no possibility of survival and no hope for a reprieve.

    How much agony have you caused, how much precious time have you wasted, by giving people false hope? This is why some people hate the American mind-set – you prefer a false hope to a bare truth, you are perky when you should be grave, and you cheapen solemn moments with brainless “Have a nice day!” mentality.

  5. This speech resonated with me and many of experiences I’ve had as a medical student, so much that it brought me to tears. Thank you. I agree with recognising that time is valuable and should be spent well, like Groucho Marx said, I find television very educational, every time it’s turned on I go and read a book. On the other hand, I wouldn’t have found your speech if I hadn’t been browsing the web idly between reading about skull fractures.

  6. A good read. Some very insightful stuff here. Granted it reeked of the repugnant stench of your own religious beliefs but still well-written and enjoyable.

    I may be giving off mixed vibes here but when people write articles and try to ‘induce’ the reader into there own religious world it really pisses me off. All that ridiculous ‘god bless us’ and ‘may god give me decades of life’ bullshit really doesn’t benefit you, nor the reader it just gives some, like me, the intermittent cringe every few paragraphs. I respect your right to have religious views and even your right to express them but when you try to include readers into your religion by saying “God guide and bless each of you, today and always!” it gets closer and closer to overboard. Yes, we get it. You’re a ‘believer’. Call me disrespectful or even a ‘heretic’ if you want but the truth is religion is a joke.

    I don’t know where I go after I die and guess what? Neither do you.

    • Thanks for the kind words. I’m glad you found parts of it relevant. But frankly, I have to ask where you learned to communicate with human beings? I’m totally OK with your views on faith. But I would never describe your note as ‘reeking of the repugnant stench of atheism.’ I actually have a very dear friend who is an avowed atheist. I understand and respect his objections, and he understands the value of my faith. Heck, I understand most atheist objections! Still, atheists aren’t excused from having decent manners.

      I don’t say this because my feelings are hurt. I’ve been writing long enough to take my lumps along with the praise. But your career in medicine is going to require that you show kindness and understanding to lots of different people with lots of different beliefs. Will you insult them and stomp out of the room if they mention faith? Will you tell them they’re fools as they pray while dying?

      Please understand this; those of us who are believers don’t contrive things to annoy you (OK, most of us don’t). We say the things we do, and write the way we do, because it flows out of our beliefs. They are seldom carefully contrived attempts to convert you. And even if they were, they would not be out of disdain, but believe it or not, out of love. You can rage against that, and hate the idea, and call it ‘bullshit’ and anything else. But we all have a ‘worldview,’ a framework for viewing the good and bad of the universe. This is ours and we believe it has validity. You have yours, that’s cool.

      I don’t think you’re a heretic, and other than common decency you don’t have any reason to respect my beliefs. But insults are really antithetical to dialogue, unless dialogue is also annoying to you. And as for your assertion that ‘the truth is religion is a joke,’ well it certainly can be funny. And even the historical Jesus took great issue with standard issue religion. But in the statement you make a sweeping condemnation of the thing that gives billions of human beings a sense of hope in the midst of suffering that you and I, in our careers, are often powerless to stop.

      As for what happens after we die, whatever one believes, it would seem to be a topic of some interest to most people since, as my partner says, ‘the death rate remains the same, one per customer.’

      Finally, remember that even if it’s offensive to you, my blog is not in any way required reading.

      No blessing offered out of respect for your beliefs,


      PS The talk was originally given at Erskine College, which is a private Christian school.

  7. While wasting my life surfing, I found this page. Thanks. It hits the spot. I hope that the message that people matter is taken to heart and that patients are never treated as “cash machines” or just interesting cases.

    The Christian references were noticeable to me, but I’m a Brit and we’re more reticent about faith over here. However, given the audience, they seem appropriate. There’s only one comment that makes a big deal of this aspect – which doesn’t suggest that it’s a big deal for most; it certainly doesn’t reduce the humanity of the content.

    Some years ago, my wife had cancer (20 years on and still correcting me). The hospital’s approach was to emphasise life quality not duration and to treat patients and families compassionately. They gave straight answers to questions but didn’t impose information that we might not have been able to take. It worked for us, so ABC’s brutal approach to truth is, to me, wide of the mark.

  8. This is a very good piece. You have been very generous in the advice you have given. This is a gem that one is unlikely to find anywhere else on the internet.

    God bless you too,

    Keep up the wonderful writing 😀

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  11. LOL, Thanks Glynn. It motivates me even more when I challenge myself to achieve what could be impossible. Training with the gas mask and weighted vest will just make me that much better. Eric, the camera Guy is tough to the core too. He did an awesome job, but he did say he was extremely sore the next day. Thanks for visiting Glynn. HUNT STRONG

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